I can't help missing her, she was my angel, my life, my everything, and all of the sudden I had to let her go and leave her alone. I wouldn't mind if i knew she was happy, but the fact that I doubt she is makes me so sad, I wish i never lost her, she doesn't know how much I miss her. though I don't regret falling in love with her, 'cuz those days were beautiful, and I'll always cherish them ♥
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She told me she had to sort her head out, that was the excuse. We'll try again, later. All lies. All bullshit, and I believed it. But she never meant a thing of what she said. She never loved me.I don't want to believe it but it is the truth.
I can't help that I love her, I can't help that I think of her.and I can't hold back the tears, when I realise it's all over, never will I see her again, never will I hear her voice again.
It's all over, no point of existing any more and still people, aren't sad, still they laugh, they move. my world stopped but they continue on theirs. there world never stopped. I wish I could just disappear, not die, because that sounds cruel , just disappear. No more memories, no more hurt feelings. Life just keeps going on. though the though of her being somewhere, with people caring about her, out of my life, but still there, gives me the strength to hold on, though it's hard for me to see why. all I ever wanted disappeared.
though I'm glad to have the memory of her. the pain helps me believing that is wasn't just a dream...
